Thursday, February 16, 2017


My blog domain renewed the other day and I SERIOUSLY considered cancelling it because clearly I'm never here anymore. But I really do hope to come back here and start documenting more! I feel like I may regret not documenting this pregnancy, but I'm just buuuusy. (Which is GOOD!)

So this post may cover a whole lot, but I haven't done an update for two months. WHOOPS. And everything feels so different now. Like, I'm really pregnant. Like, this is the new me. I almost can't even remember what it was like before I went to bed and woke up to little nudges in my belly. Or what it was like to wear jeans, HA. I did try a bunch of maternity jeans, but decided not even going there. Not unless I could buy a REALLY nice pair, but I don't want to do that. I told John that's what I want post baby. New Madewells so I have incentive to get back into shape. Not that I won't have other incentives, lol. It WILL be practically summer. But this isn't a fitness related post, so moving on....

When this publishes, I will officially be TWENTY EIGHT WEEKS!!! AND LIKE, 4 DAYS!! Getting REALLY REAL over here. My shower is in a few weeks and already people are starting to send us things and I literally have never been so excited IN MY LIFE. Even over the tiniest little things like swaddles, I'm like OBSESSED with looking at and imaging her tiny little baby body in. GAH. You guys. I know it probably seems like all I talk about is my changing body, and how we're not really ready for this...but I cannot wait. Sometimes I try to imagine what my life will be like soon, and I can't even. I have an idea, but I really have NO idea. I think maybe that's why it's such a shock for some women once the baby's born. I don't know how prepared you can be for your entire world to change in a second. I've started thinking a lot lately about that and trying to prepare myself. Knowing how hard it was for me to learn HOW to be pregnant, I imagine it will be hard for me to learn how to NOT be pregnant haha. (Taking advice!) I've started reading a TON lately. On ALL topics. I feel like I need to catch up on a lot. But I still think the best book I read so far was "Bringing Up Bebe." And I'm about through with one book called "Push Back" that I really am loving. It's sort of a...."push back" against the natural childbirth movement, which I'm really not against. ALTHOUGH I will be open and honest - going for the drugs. All of em. No shame. But I like it because I find the whole medical side of how birth's evolved very interesting. And it's interesting how this "natural" thing has really taken off recently, almost like....well a fad, haha. I'll stop there. I do not want to argue about this. (Please.) But I suggest reading it. Even IF you're very crunchy, just to hear the other side of things. OR if you maybe think you had a "bad" birth experience, for sure read this. 

ANYWAYS. Not getting into that. Like I said. (Even though I pretty much just did, haha..)

Moving on to my recap now...which might be a lot...but HEY I just paid $14.99 for this website so it's my space to record whatever I want, right?

I'll start with the obvious changes. I'M HUGE! I'm not really sure when this thing "popped" but it sure did! The baby itself feels HUGE too. I felt my first nudges at 20 weeks and they were these tiny little things and now I swear, she's giving me elbows, haha. We were walking Ted last night and I stopped and went, "OW." Felt just like an elbow, I swear! But I think it was actually her butt. Last time we went to the doctor there was this one really hard spot and she was like, "that's her butt right there." Haha. And I was like, "OH MY GOSH SHE HAS A BUTT?!" Like, I can't even stand thinking about how cute she's going to be.

But back to changes...I've gained just about 15 lbs, so I'm happy about that. (Although I'm getting a bit relaxed on my healthy eating..) And I don't think I have any stretch marks yet, I'm using a combo of like three oils/creams, but I have gotten those little purple veins on my legs which are lovely. I'm actually just very veiny right now in general. But that could also be because I'm super pale, haha. I haven't experienced any swollen-ness or anything like that, but I did get a certain lovely gift that is very common to pregnancy due to "pressure" I guess, and I won't mention out loud, but if you know, you know. So that's been super fun. And my belly button is starting to pop out on one side. I've been tapping it down actually, which I don't know if that's even recommended..or if it will even help, but it helps my shirts not look so funny too, so I do it.

But at least my hair is finally growing. So that's been a bonus! But really, it hasn't been that bad. So far. I know this belly will probably double in size by the end, as it's growing BY THE DAY so I'm sure I'll be getting very uncomfortable soon. I've already put in my time with my nanny job to stop mid March, about six weeks before my due date because I just think at that point, I'll be moving a lot slower and have a lot less energy. Also, I'm worried my belly will hit the steering wheel by then, haha. (I do a lot of driving for them.) Even now it's starting to get uncomfortable just sitting here at the computer. It hurts where my boobs meet my belly, lol? Maybe that's my bad posture coming into play, but sometimes I swear, I just need to lay flat for a minute to like stretch it all back out. (On my back. I know. Bad.) And speaking of laying down/sleeping, I am so OBSESSED with my snoggle pillow. I'm going to have a really hard time giving that thing up. Although I did actually have two dreams recently that I could sleep on my stomach again, so maybe once I can do that I'll forget about the snoggle because I looooove stomach sleeping.

Or maybe I just WON'T be sleeping soon, hahaha. You know, because we will have a newborn and all. John's hoping to be able to take a ton of time off, and we've decided that we just want it to be us for the first week or two before any visitors come so the three of us can bond and all that. I'm so excited. Even if we won't be sleeping. (Maybe he will, I don't know. I only know she's going to have to eat what, like every 2 hours? HOW DOES SOMEONE SLEEP?) I think I mentioned it on my Instagram a while back, but since I sort of picked her first name, John was in charge of her middle name, and we had one, but then we realized it was the street name our hospital is on..and we didn't want her to think we named her after that, haha. So he decided on something else recently and I BELIEVE we are set now! I was going back and forth on the spelling of her first name, but I think I've decided on that too. John made a comment that "people are going to think we don't know how to spell" hahaha. Which is funny to me because there are seriously like ten different ways to spell any name anymore. So we're going basic. But that's probably best. It's more us anyways.

And that reminds me, does anyone know of a cute Etsy shop or something that has customized name blankets? Similar to this. Ever since our "prepared childbirth" class last weekend, I've been feeling like I should really get the hospital bag together. Soon at least. But she needs clothes. And a blanket! But I guess I should probably wait for the shower first...

Okay, but I really want to talk about our class because I feel like that was the point when we both went, "oh shit." I don't think John had any idea that this was coming as soon as it is. I almost bailed out on the class actually, but I'm really glad we went. For one, it sounds weird, but it was really fun for us. It was almost like a date, haha. (Shows how lame we are!) But we made it fun. We were DEFINITELY the most laid back couple there. We were like giggling the whole time while everyone else was so super serious. (I mean, we did take it seriously though, I swear.) The women teaching it was bit too "Mother Earthy" for me. She was very proud of the girls who mentioned they wanted a natural birth. And she quoted us a passage from Ina May. So whenever she would go off on her natural stuff, I'd like look off into the distance in case she zoned her eyes in on me like, "YOU. LITTLE GIRL BETTER BE LISTENING." Hahaha. That's what I was imaging anyway...

So yeah, tons of "hospital bag" researching now. And I've been watching lots of birth stories on Youtube. My favorites are the ones where they get the epidural, take a nap and then have a quick baby. HAHAHA. Am I setting myself up with all this wishful thinking? I hope not, but really, I AM prepared to go with the flow. I think I will just be mostly excited to meet her, so whatever happens is fine. Just want a healthy baby.

But I'll probably talk more that later as it gets closer. I'd love to write her a letter before she comes. (Or a public blog post, LOL.) So, more to come...

Now onto what rules my life. Food. Always.

As much as I wish I could stop, my late night snacks are still happening. I just hope I can cut them out someday. (I used to be SO good. Like stopped eating at 7:30 every night!) For I swear, almost three months now I have been OBSESSED with this bread. Probably because all I really want is a cinnamon roll. Or really, cinnamon anything. So I have two pieces of this every day with cinnamon. And this tea is new to me, and I'll admit...the packaging totally got me. I was like, "YESS THIRD TRIMESTER!" But it's actually very tasty, and I "feel" like it's doing something good for me. Since that's what the packaging leads me to believe...

Remember that book I was just praising about? That book would tell me that this is the natural parenting industry making money off of me, hahaha. Whatever.

And besides that, I am OBSESSED with these one crackers I get at Kroger. I don't know the brand, but I snap them in my Instagram story all the time, haha. They're like wheat thins. I don't know why, I just love them right now! And oranges! And...avocados? I don't know I'm just rambling off foods that sound good...OH pasta. We went out to this pasta place last month, and I just got simple spaghetti with meat sauce and it was like THE best thing I had ever had in my entire life. I could not get over how good it was. I took half home and the next day I was like standing over the kitchen counter eating it out of the styrofoam box cold and it was just as delicious. I think we may have to go back there John..if you're listening..

We're trying to get in all the dates right now, so that's been fun! I do hope we will still get out once she's here, but I'm not sure sit down dinners will be happening. Or maybe they will, and she will make it even better? I don't know. We have to meet her first to find out what she's like! That's another one of the crazy things about all this. We have no idea who she is yet! So it's hard to imagine! John will ask me questions all the time, like do I think she will want to play soccer or do gymnastics and I'm like, "I don't know, I don't know her yet!" So far all I know is that she loves to kick around. So maybe both, hahahaha.

So I've covered my bump..preparing for baby..and what I'm eating. What else is there? Oh, we're trying to figure out where to live! Like, I'm waiting for a call right now hoping I can see a house this morning! Maybe I'll do another post all about that. But SHEESH. Are there like not enough houses in the world for everyone? So far it seems like if we don't see a house IMMEDIATELY, it's not even an option. You basically have to put in an offer without seeing it, haha. But FAITH. Having FAITH on all this. And I know it will be fine. EVEN if for some reason we have to bring her home here, we will be fine. It would just be very, very cramped as these little babies need so much stuff. (SO MUCH. STUFF.) But more and more and more on that later..

...gonna go eat some more of those crackers and wait for my phone call. Until next time!!

Wednesday, January 4, 2017

Christmas 2016. In 500 pictures or less..

Not feeling much for words at the moment (ever feel that way?) but MUST somewhat document the holiday before it gets too late. So here we gooooo....

Official Christmas photo all huddled in front of our tiny, tiny tree haha. (And check out the quality on that new camera! NEED to use it a lot more often!)

 Johns brother and his girlfriend were so sweet and flew out here to stay with us over the holiday so this whole post is basically thanks to them because if it had been just John and I, I'm not sure what we would have done all week, haha. 

And Ted's official Christmas picture. HAHHAHA. (Seriously though, that camera! So good!)

I was very uncomfortable with the pose of the first picture. I liked this one much better, lol.

I realize this is probably TOO close up now, but Christmas dinner! Johns brother did the steak and lobster, I did the asparagus and John was in charge of cutting the bread. (And then basically force feeding everyone his favorite butter, lol. Guy loves butter.) 

The boys playing with some little drones they got. In our tiny, tiny apartment so they kept crashing, haha. (And that's Ted ON TOP of the couch. Weirdo.)

OH and on Christmas day we went to the movies and saw, "Why Him?" SO FUNNY. OMG. I didn't even have a chance to watch the trailer beforehand so I had no idea what it was going to be about at all, but SO FUNNY. Go see it! And skip the Icee because it was actually really disappointing. But I had given myself a pass that day to just enjoy whatever I wanted. (Because I DID somehow wake up and go to the gym. The ACTUAL gym. So that deserved a treat in itself, lol.) 

And OBVIOUSLY we had to take them out for some BBQ because this is Texas. So we went downtown to this place that John's been dying to go to, Pecan Lodge. They're only open for like three hours a day and we wanted to make sure we got a seat, so we tried to get there right when they opened. Looks like we weren't the only ones!

John gave it an A+. My favorite part was probably the collard greens. Who knew!

And then one night they took us out to have our very first Indian food experience! John was nervous...sensitive tummy, but we both really, really liked it! I honestly probably ate more than everyone, haha.

Caught taking a bump selfie at the restaurant hahaha... 

And another  "OBVIOUSLY," we had to get some Mexican food. We actually don't have a favorite place around here yet. (Besides Tochy's. Which is like fast food tacos, lol.) So we tried somewhere new and it I got the shrimp tacos and they were just alright. John actually got an amazing looking taco salad though.

(You guys. I could make any post into food post. I have problems. Moving on..)

And after Mexican we went to Top Golf which is cool and fun and I've talked about it before, but most specifically about them having the best queso dip ever. So even though we had JUST had Mexican food, we got the queso. And I golfed for about an hour before I starting complaining that my hand hurt, so I let them finish the second half without me. (NOT a single competitive bone in my body. Not a one.)

AND because why not? We stopped by the Stock Yards on the way to the airport before they left to see the animals, hahaha. I was actually not feeling very well and did NOT feel like walking around there (we had just ate MORE much food) so we didn't stay very long. I don't think it was just me though, I think we were all really tired by then actually. (No photo proof, but those three did lots of drinking LOL.)

So as you can tell, LOTS of food happened, haha. It was so much fun though, and I LOVE when people visit pretty much for that reason because we eat, eat, eat. It's the best. (Even if it's hard to recover from afterwards, lol.) It's crazy to think how different next Christmas will be for us. We have no idea really what life will look like. Where we'll be living, WHO this little girl of ours will be. I bet we will even retire that tiny, tiny Christmas tree. Who knows! But this was a perfect, "last Christmas" as non-parents. (Especially for those who got to partake in the alcohol festivities, haha.) Maybe Santa will even show up next year?!?! WHO KNOWS! Time will tell!

Thursday, December 22, 2016

20 week "bumpdate" + a photoshoot and my favorite quotes from the Dad to be.

"Photoshoot" LOL. In my world that means begging John to take pictures of me "for like one minute" and then he acts like some crazy paparazzi and snaps 500 pictures without really trying to make sure my whole body is in it, or caring if the doorwall is in it, or if it's crooked or not...

But thank you John, I love you. Eventually I/we will figure out how to use this new camera...I did Youtube some tutorials one night and ended up crying and saying, "I just want to be good at everything." HAHA. This could have been called "the crazy update" because seriously, I'm getting crazier and crazier. But I don't think I need to update anyone on that. (Just check my Instagram, lol.)

So let's start with the bump! And no my hair is not red. Although it does look sort of cool, it's just the lights above my head and whatever setting this camera was on. Or because the flash was on...don't know.

But there she is!

PS. I wear this outfit probably, three times a week. These are "over the belly" maternity leggings but I fold them down. And as far as shirts, I'm either wearing something super tight like this, or I'm hiding under big sweaters. Not sure which way I'm most comfortable yet. I feel like I'm still at that stage where I can hide it and when I don't, I'm always paranoid someone is looking at me like "is she....

4/400 that look similar to these...

Growing by the day, I swear. The little girl I nanny is so cute and asks every day how big baby is and every day I go, "just a little bit bigger today," haha. I actually hid it from them for so long. Not the parents, just the kids because I wasn't sure how to tell them and I was worried they'd ask how it happened, lol. And I wasn't about to answer that one...

But yeah, 20 weeks and 4 days today! I guess this is halfway point, which is NUTS. All of a sudden it's so real. Up until now it's been all fun and guessing games like, "is there a baby in there? Maybe! Who knows!" But now I for sure know she's in there. SPEAKING OF - I felt her kick for the first time the other day! Or punch, I don't know. But I was just watching tv on the couch, eating eggs and my stomach started feeling weird so I started watching it and boom, boom, boom. There she was! I couldn't believe it. Like, she's so small still, right? How is she doing that? Actually, according to my app she's like a small cantaloupe. WHAT!! How "small" are we talking BabyBump????

Not that THIS didn't convince me that she's actually in there, lol. (PS these pictures are so weird. She looks like she has a snout, lol.) We were really excited about this appointment last week and it was cool, don't get me wrong, but we wanted to see her MORE. The tech did all the measurements, which was interesting and all, but she only stopped and let us see her move around for a second and that's what I really wanted to see. But she was definitely moving! She had her little hands up in front of her face the whole time like we had just woken her up and she was pissed, haha. I doubt this has anything to actually do with her personality but now I just imagine her being a feisty little thing. On the way home John goes, "I hope she's a shark." And by that I think he means that he hopes she's...aggressive, lol. I keep telling him though that he's going to have to teach her how to be a strong and confident little lady because I'm so not-sharky. I'm literally the most laid back person on the planet and I also keep reminding him she's going to be a Taurus like me, so not to expect her to be too sharky, haha. (I fully believe in astrology. Taurus to a T over here!)

And with that, I'm going to go into some of my favorite John quotes as of lately. Because they're my favorite and he's killing me.

* Me crying during my work out one morning because it was hard and it was Saturday and I didn't want to do it. Leans over to talk to my stomach, "hey, this isn't my fault."

* After he gets dressed one morning and discovers ONE of his shirts is in the wrong place in the closet. (ONE, lol.) Comes out into the kitchen and nicely asks, "did you stroke out or something??" 

* I started dabbling around in a registry a while back (dabbling as in just adding everything, haha) and started showing John some of the things I think we need. Looking at a high chair he zooms in and goes, "why do they always have to be strapped in like they're on a f****** roller coaster??" 

I was seriously dying doing the registry with him. He also thinks it's so creepy to put a video camera in your kids room to watch them sleep, haha. He seriously was appalled that people do that. Like, it's a lack of their privacy or something hahaha. And about the stroke comment, I am forgetting EVERYTHING. I knew that was a thing, but I thought it was more like, once the baby was actually here. But lately, just the stupidest little things I'm forgetting, or just being careless about. The other day I was putting a bunch of stuff in the car, like loaded some stuff in the back and some in the backseat and I got up front and realized I had left my phone in the very back and my (open) water bottle in the seat behind me. Like, what?! And more than once I've found myself opening up the wrong cupboards in the kitchen looking for things. Like, I know exactly where the coffee mugs are (for my cereal, duh!) yet I'll open the spice cabinet. It's so weird. So yeah, "stroking out" a bit for sure.

But really, I have nothing to serious to complain about. Besides being overly emotional, I'd say this is somewhat of a perfect pregnancy so far. I'm feeling good, still working out six days a week, eating OKAY, sleeping OKAY. My body is definitely changing, which is still hard to accept sometimes, but I know I'm doing the best I can, so I feel good. Up about ten pounds now, boobs are huge (for me), no stretch marks (yet) but I AM noticing some cellulite already which is a bummer considering ALL THE FRICKING LEG WORK I DO, lol, but it's fine. And slowly but surely, all my clothes are starting not to fit, but can't really complain about that either. (Because I get to shop, hahahaha.) So no real problems to fact...this update is actually somewhat boring because I'm not really sure what to say, haha. I always thought I'd be that person that did like weekly updates, but really, not much changes from week to week.

I guess, I could talk about food though, if anyone's interested in that.....


I want all the sweets. Allll the sweets. And all the cinnamon rolls to be specific. I've only had two, but I text John almost every day, "I want donuts." When I go to the grocery store I slowly walk past the section that has all the Pillsbury biscuits and I think about getting some of those take and bake cinnamon rolls...but I know I'd eat THEM ALL. MYSELF.  Somehow I've been able to pass them up, but I honestly can't even talk about this right now because it's making me want one, lol. But, yeah. Allll the sweets. Still eating cereal but not quite as obsessed. I keep buying these stupid little chocolate chip cookies that are shaped like animals and meant for kids. They're organic so I stupidly convince myself that they're healthy. But for the most part, I'm doing good. Drinking tons of lemon water. I can't get enough lemon water.

...and this is getting boring again so I'm going to stop, haha. Maybe I'll do like a 25 week update and have more going on then? Or at least a bigger belly to show and some more funny stories from John, haha.

So that's 20 weeks! Only 20-ish more until we get to meet this little chick! (AHH!) Lots to do! Lots of donuts to think about! Lots to cry over! (Lol!) Until next time, xx.


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