Just a few of my favorite things...
***TMI*** if you're a male stop reading! YOU KNOW WHERE THIS IS GOING, JUST STOP NOW. Okay, so, I recently had to go through my first...period (is there a less disgusting way to say this? I don't know, some people say their "monthly friend," John used to call her "Leona" lol, whatever she is, she is not my friend) where I was trying to stick to my clean eating. I surprised myself and woke up everyday to workout, maybe not the best I could have done, but I did it. The eating/cravings part was what I was really concerned about though. I went to Trader Joe's last week and bought a tiny little like tic-tac size thing of dark chocolate nibs just in case I really, really needed something. And guess whaat?? I put them in the safe when I got home, and they're STILL THERE!
This might be the greatest accomplishment of my life. See, I use this one little excuse once a month, every month, to do whatever the hell I want. No holding back. TREAT-YO-SELF mode for a whole week. If you think about that, that kind of adds up though right? I don't know about anyone else, but for example...last month, I think I even wrote about this, but I got RAVENOUS one morning and drove myself to Walmart as fast as I possibly could, looking like A HOT MESS and picked up moose tracks ice cream, break and bake chocolate chip cookies, and then on the way home whipped into McDonalds for a quarter pounder and fries. Then at home, I crawled back into bed with the McDonalds and not even the ice cream I just bought, but ONE I ALREADY HAD AT HOME!! (Banana chocolate chip Talenti if you're wondering. And yes I remember ever flavor ice cream I've ever eaten and when I ate it because it's just MY LIFE.) Then I took a nap and upon waking up, went into the kitchen and made the cookies. Ate a few raw...of course, then once they were cooked I made myself a little plate with some almond milk for dipping and binged while watching Netflix. And that was just one day that I can remember. Who the hell else knows what I ate the rest of the week.
Is that unreasonable...? Someone tell me what you've done, haha. It all sounds very depressing to me right now, but that's how I spent the last however many periods for as long as I can remember. I let myself do those things because I think it makes me feel better. NEWS FLASH - it didn't!!!! I actually felt like a pig eating a hamburger in my bed. But I didn't know what else to do. I just knew I felt like a garbage person, so I acted like a garbage person I guess.
And I'm not trying to say that you shouldn't ever do this. If you enjoy this behavior go right ahead, but I'm just saying I thought I "enjoyed" (enjoyed meaning it made me feel better) it at the time, but now I'm not so sure that I really did. I'll tell you how I know this. For the first time, ever, I did not eat like a garbage person and in turn I didn't feel like a garbage person. I didn't act like a garbage person. I actually FELT GOOD ABOUT MYSELF. Imagine that. I was emotional, sure. I am naturally. And I did cry twice, but to be honest it was more about crazy life things that are going on and not really unreasonable things to cry over. But I didn't fall apart completely like I usually do and take it out on eating. I cried for two minutes, and then said, okay I'm cool. And moved on. I've already mentioned how eating better has changed my mood swings and helped keep my emotions in check, but I really wasn't sure how this would go. Because I am usually a crazy person.
Sure I WANTED all the chocolate, that craving is real and will never go away during this time, but I knew I just couldn't do it. Garbage eating in real life and period life are very similar. They both are because I can't handle something/don't know how to handle something/am avoiding something, and for me at least, I'm pretty sure I eat the way I do on my period because I am OVERLY emotional and feel like the world is falling apart. But I realized, it's not. It never is. And eating out of the ice cream carton in bed just makes it seem more like it is. So I refused to give into that behavior. BUT, I still wanted the chocolate, so I made some healthier alternatives to incorporate into my days. And I didn't binge them because they weren't so much a "treat" but REAL FOOD. Just with a little sweetness to them ;) I am probably going to experiment a lot more with "sweets," but here's what I made this week:
Chocolate Zucchini muffins.
They kind of look like meatloaf muffins, no? (I make meatloaf into muffins..maybe no one else does this.) These turned to pretty good, and for a second could have fooled me for a cupcake/brownie because of the texture. And bonus, they had veggies and tons of protein in them. Recipe is on my Instagram, so click there if you want to check that out. I used chocolate Shakeology in mine, but cocoa powder is just fine too.
"Cookie Dough" Greek Yogurt.
So, this is where the dark chocolate nibs would have come in handy, but for me I feel like using them would be a gateway drug for everything else. I just couldn't do it. So I used..again, chocolate Shakeology. Mini chocolate chips would be fun too. I just mixed in a splash of vanilla extract, about 1T of almond (could use peanut) butter and mixed it up. This was something that I saw on Pinterest, and just so you know, it does not taste like cookie dough, because it is not...
And then, my favorite this week - Chocolate Almond Granola Bars.
This is something I made up yesterday, and they tasted really similar to those no bake cookies...except again...not, haha. I used 1C. Trader Joes gluten free rolled oats, mixed in 1T chocolate Shakeology OR cocoa powder, and 1t cinnamon. Then I toasted about a handful of chopped almonds, added those, and then mixed in 1/2C of melted almond butter and about 1/3 cup honey. Then pressed into a baking dish and threw into the freezer until firm. You could also make these into balls. Bars or balls, your call. But REALLY GOOD. I might get crazy with these...but that's why I only made a few.
Not the best idea's, but it's my first time. Give me a few months to get some good tried and true "chocolate" recipes and I'll meet you back here. And believe it or not, cocoa powder is actually pretty good for you! It's like how everyone says dark chocolate is healthy...well it is, BUT THEN ALL THE SUGAR'S ADDED. So cocoa powder has all that good stuff, minus the sugar. This article even says it has antidepressant effects! So why not indulge in a sprinkle of cocoa powder once a month. Or double up on chocolate shakeology. (Plug, lol. Just kidding, I'm really not that kind of "sales" person.)
So that'll do it for today's episode of "what the hell was the point of that" post. I have to run out the door to work now. The other day the little girl I watch ate Nutella out of a bowl (well, she asked and I let her...lol), so wish me luck. ALSO (one more plug...) I am hosting a "clean eating group" on Facebook that begins on Monday, so let me know if anyone wants in! (It'll be fun, no pressure, just swapping recipe ideas and support!)
Happy Friday! xx