"Cravings" in parenthesis because I might just be a crazy person. I mean, only a crazy person would have TEN BOXES OF CEREAL, RIGHT? (Plus one more in the pantry!!!)
I know I mentioned back in my first pregnancy post that I didn't feel pregnant at all until all of a sudden I couldn't stomach any of the foods I was used to eating. As many of you know, prior to becoming pregnant, I became very (somewhat obsessed with being) healthy. It was hard, but I taught myself to just eat what's good for me and be fine with it. It wasn't always interesting, but I'd usually have some form of eggs each day, lots of salads, raw veggies and fruits, yogurt, hummus, you know - lot's of good stuff. And I was limiting my carbs and fats somewhat. (Besides peanut butter. That never worked for me.) And I learned to be totally fine with eating things that didn't always taste amazing because really, it's not the most important thing. That is...UNLESS YOU'RE PREGNANT, HAHAHAHA.
One of the first signs I knew I was probably FOR REAL pregnant was when I first started to have a problem with raw vegetables. They had no appeal to me all of a sudden. I kept trying, but I just couldn't do it. One day when I was nannying, I had this little snack baggie of snap peas and hummus. And I wanted to die. It was just the most disgusting thing in the world to me. I don't think I will EVER be able to eat hummus again. At this very moment there are like 20 individual packs of organic hummus that will not ever get eaten, because I am now allergic to hummus or something, haha. But not eating vegetables wasn't really an option because I just know too much now to not eat them, so I worked on trying to trick myself. I'd make a big salad but add bacon and ranch and lots of parmesan cheese, and usually it'd be enough to get me to eat it. Then I had a few weeks were I couldn't stand the thought of eggs so I didn't even try, but luckily, I think both the vegetable (most at least) and the egg aversions have passed. Just yesterday I had poached eggs for breakfast and a greek salad for dinner. So I think I'm cured. Hummus on the other hand though, never again. Never, ever, ever again.
And the weirdest thing. I started to not even get excited about my chocolate Shakeology. I had to start forcing myself to drink it almost, which I can't understand because it literally is like a chocolate milkshake and what pregnant person wouldn't want that?! But it's just like with salads and eggs, loved it one minute and couldn't stomach it the next. BUT this was another thing that I wouldn't let myself just cut out. It's too important and I KNEW my body would suffer if I stopped drinking it. SO: enter the chocolate Shakeology bowl, lol. It's a packet of Shakeology mixed with almond milk until it becomes sort of like a pudding consistency. And then I'd mix in a spoonful of coconut oil, almond butter and top it with unsweetened coconut flakes and sliced strawberries. And it was A-M-A-Z-I-N-G. I was obsessed with this for like two weeks. And then one day I got a craving for cold fruit smoothies and immediately went online and changed my next order to strawberry, and ever since then I've been making fruit smoothies every day. Going like a month strong on that one, haha. OH. And during my initial Shakeology struggle, I even tried adding Butterfinger candies to my shake. I'm really horrified to admit that, but I was desperate.
But as far as "cravings." Those were another thing I really taught myself were sort of like made up and a "mind over matter" thing, and maybe that's true on a normal basis but again - NOT IF YOU'RE PREGNANT HAHAHAHA. Pregnancy cravings are SO REAL. At any given moment you could ask me what I'm craving and I could literally like go inside of my body and tell you exactly what it wants. It's so weird. I tried really hard to ignore them...and I hate to admit this too, but I think they're sort of fun now. (NOW. Not a few weeks ago when I was crying over the loss of control in my own life, haha.)
What's weird though, is for or the most part the "cravings" come and go. And once they're gone, they're gone. Like, we went out to a taco place with friends one weekend and I ordered the same thing I had ordered the last time I was there, a chicken taco, but this time I felt SO DISAPPOINTED by it even though the last time I thought was great. And instead of enjoying my own food, I was eyeing the side of refried beans that the person a few seats down from me was having. I was having this inner crisis of, "do I go back up and order a side of beans? Would that be weird? Is everyone already almost done eating? Would that be so weird??" And I didn't, but I thought about it FOR DAYS and then one night when John brought up Taco Bell and I was like, "yes. Beans. Finally!" So I got a nacho with beans. And after that I didn't think about beans anymore.
And that's pretty much how it goes...
One night I was watching Teen Mom (I know, lol) and Maci (who was also pregnant) was at a sushi place and she goes, "I'll just have a California roll." And I thought, "oh yes. A California roll." So the next day I went to Kroger and got myself a California roll for lunch, haha. And it was great. Then one night I saw on Snapchat that Jessie James Decker was making spaghetti bolognese and the next night, guess what I made? YES. Spaghetti bolognese. (She put wine in hers though, I did not.) And then someone brought up peanut butter and jelly sandwiches to me and the next night when I couldn't sleep, I got up to make a peanut butter and jelly sandwich. (More on the night snacking later...)
Basically, once I get something in my mind I can't stop thinking about it until I have it. And usually after that it passes.
It's a Jimmy Johns BLT. (With avocado) I am obsessed with this and could have it every single day, but I've actually only let myself twice. I think I just want the whole wheat bread, haha. And since I'm "supposed" to stay away from deli meats, I get the BLT. Although...confession, I did have a ham and cheese sandwich when I was at the airport a while ago, but I was dying and only had like three seconds to find something and felt like I needed protein badly. Oh...and then, John and I went to Pot Belly the other day and I had a sandwich with like three different kinds of meat on it. And I didn't die...so, all's fine. (Plus, I don't really follow all those rules. I eat feta. And honey. Often.)
And this was a BIG one and I'm finally starting to lay off, but I wanted all the "bubbles" for a while there. When I went home to my parents in Michigan, I was like, "Dad. I NEED sparkling water." This all happened after I got a Sprite when we were out once and it was like THE BEST THING IN THE ENTIRE WORLD to me. But because I won't let myself just drink Sprite, I'm trying to make do with healthier alternatives like these Zevia "sodas" which are no calories, no sugar, no nothing really and they're pretty good! They have flavors like cola, cherry cola, root beer and grape soda, but so far my favorite is actually the ginger ale. Not sure if I actually wanted the ginger ale, or I felt like I should be wanting the ginger ale because I'm pregnant, haha.
But the longest standing craving so far has been...you guessed it. The ten boxes of cereal, haha. This whole thing started out innocently with a semi-normal purchase of three boxes, but soon I was going back to the store each day for more. Not because I was eating it that quickly, I'm not I swear, but this certain brand is sort of pricey and happened to be on sale recently at Kroger for like $1.60 a box. So I started freaking out thinking, "I better stock up before they take them off sale!!"
Also, that's another pregnancy test because I wasn't lying when I said I was taking them weekly until I could get to the doctor, lol.
So eventually, I stopped buying cereal because I did the math and I think this will get me through May. (Also, because they all expire around next May/June, haha.) I don't know what it is about cereal right now, but it's just LIFE to me. Maybe because I hadn't really had it in a long time? Or it's a comfort food for me? Like being a kid again. I don't know. But I mostly have it in the middle of the night. As much as I'd like to eat it multiple times a day, I don't (usually) let myself. I just pour myself a little coffee cup full every night when I can't sleep and maybe it's all in my head, but I swear it helps me sleep better. And this brand isn't "healthy," but it's "healthier." The box I've been eating lately is the "sweetened wheatfuls" and the only two ingredients are whole grain wheat and sugar gelatin, so it's not like I'm going all out and having Reeses Puffs or something. (Although, I'd love those.)
And because this is getting stupid long now, I'll just list a few honorable mentions. For memories sake.
- Franks hot sauce.
- Orange juice.
- French fries. (With ketchup.)
- Crackers and peanut butter sandwiches.
- Ground turkey. (Lasted about a minute and now I have a bunch in the freezer that I want nothing to do with.)
- Graham crackers.
...and that's all I can remember off the top of my head. I think going into the holidays will be somewhat hard. (But fun.) I am DROOLING just thinking of Thanksgiving food and peppermint candies and Christmas cookies. But I also feel like I'm getting more control of this now and getting the hang of it. I definitely want to enjoy this time and will FOR SURE be indulging a bit, but also going to work really hard not to make it a free for all. Try to make smarter choices, you know. No Reeses Puffs, lol.