Monday, October 24, 2016

WE'RE HAVING A BABY!!


(Alternately titled, "WARNING: here's a thousand pictures of pee tests.")

So long time, no blog huh? I initially put my blog over to private so I could update it a bit...and then I found out I was PREGNANT (still so weird to say that) and then there was no way I was going to be able to post at all about anything else. (Not that I was posting much before that, but so about to change. #INSPIRED.) It's literally taken over my entire mind, and my life and my body, haha. So it feels SO GOOD to finally be able to talk about it. I understand why people wait until twelve weeks to make the big "announcement," but that is just not for me. I would have told weeks ago if John were up for it. (He likes his privacy.) It's almost like it wasn't real because I couldn't talk about it. Like a weird little secret I had, like an imaginary friend or something, haha. But it is very, very real! And getting realer every single day! (I don't care if realer's not a word. Go with it.)

But let me back it up and tell the long story. Like, how did this happen!???! Haha, kidding. We all know how it happened, and my parents read this so not going into detail...but I'm sure it was not only a surprise to them, and to us, but to everyone. Our plan was always, "when we turn 30..." And that seemed pretty good. Close enough and at an age where we'd still be young, but far enough away that it was always just something we talked about. Like an "idea." Although truth be told, I used to cry every single time someone announced a pregnancy (guarantee most of you blog friends, you made me cry lol) because it made me sad we weren't "there" yet. I used to wonder why everyone else was "ready" and I wasn't. (Found out the secret to that one, it's that YOU'RE NEVER READY.) So, needless to say, this was sort of a surprise to us. But not really. We never had "the talk" where we were like, "okay we're ready now. Let's do it." But we also sort of just let it happen. Not to get all TMI, but we've always been very careful up until recently. I haven't been on birth control for years (I thought it was contributing to my acne) but we were VERY careful. I joked to some friends last summer that we could never get pregnant by accident because John just wouldn't let that happen. And then we moved here this summer, and maybe it's because we're staying put and life is getting normal, but we started being less careful. And at first I joked to John, "it's fine, I really don't think God would give us a baby right now" and he'd agree. But then August came and...no period. LOL. I took a test two days after my missed period date (I'm very consistent), and normally I wouldn't have rushed to take a test, especially because I felt perfectly normal, but I had a dermatologist appointment that day and up until that day I had been taking a certain medication that I knew wasn't suggested while pregnant. So to be safe, I bought a test the night before and told John I'd take it in the morning. I think I thought there was like, a 20% chance I was because like I said, I felt COMPLETELY NORMAL. (And I'm sure John thought it was 0%, lol.)


I always (used to..) get so nervous buying pregnancy tests, lol. So I didn't NEED any of this other stuff, but I had to fill my basket, haha.

So fast forward to early that morning, I knew I should take it first thing so it'd be most accurate, but around 4AM I really, really had to pee and couldn't wait, so I got up and took the test pretty much with eyes closed. And I didn't know if I was just half asleep or what, but it looked like there was a VERY faint second line. So I stared at it (still sitting on the toilet) for what felt like ever, with my hand clutched over my heart because it started beating so fast. And eventually I moved onto the floor where I continued to just stare at it some more, haha. And I knew. It was so barely there, but it was there. And I knew enough to know that meant something. (Or so I thought, but I was very, very not awake still.) So eventually I got back into bed, but of course I couldn't sleep after that. My mind was just racing. I think I got up like two or three more times to go check it because I kept thinking, "wait...was that line really there??" So then John's alarm goes off around 5:45AM, and he snoozes, so I snuck back into the bathroom to take another test before he woke up...


And this time the line was barely there again, but it was there just a tiny bit darker. You can see here (or not, lol) that first test - on the top, the line was barely, barely there. But the second test -bottom, is also barely there, but you can definitely see it! So I really didn't know what to do. I was trying to decide if I wanted to freak John out before he went to work or tell him later, but I knew if I didn't tell him, I'd just be texting him within an hour about it anyways because I can't keep anything in. So I very calmly was like, "hey can you come here and look at something?" And he goes, "are you pregnant." And I went, "I don't know." (Haha.) So he takes a look at them and goes, "I don't see anything." (HAHA.) And I was like, "yeah I don't know...."

So he goes to work. And immediately I'm on the internet, googling things like, "really faint line on pregnancy test." Because, I still had that dermatologist appointment later that day and I didn't know if I should cancel it or not. OH, and this was the day Ted was going to get neutered, so I had that going on too. But I think it was good in a way because all of a sudden, I wasn't really worried or sad for Ted, haha. (Not to be mean...but my mind was just elsewhere.) SO, according to the internet, false positives are very rare, so I knew deep down that this was probably for real. So I went out...again...to get some more tests. But this time I got one of those digital tests that either say "pregnant" or "not pregnant." So I went home and took that one mid-morning. And it said to wait three minutes. So I left it on the floor in the bathroom, went into the kitchen and set a timer because I didn't want to just stare at it for three minutes. AND when I came back...."not pregnant." So I texted a picture to John and he went, "see? All good." (HAHAHAHA.) 

So this goes on for about two more days. I go back to the store, buy more tests, and take about two a day and each time they'd get a little bit darker. I started leaving them out for John to see and then I'd joke, "look how pregnant I am today" haha. And still he wasn't really convinced. I tried to stay cool, but it was hard because I wanted to act like everything was fine, but I was also like, "HOLY SHIT. WHAT DO I DO?" It was all very confusing. I started journaling a lot during that first week because I was like, "I think I'm pregnant.." and since I couldn't freak out about it to John or anyone else really, I had to do it somewhere. (And I know John well enough to give him his space to process things his own way. Which is sometimes denial, hahaha.)


BUT THEN. I took the second digital test, I don't know maybe four days later because I had learned from google that they might not be sensitive enough to pick up early pregnancy. So I waited (which was hard, lol) and finally took it and definitely "PREGNANT" this time. Even STILL though, John was like, "maybe you're just stressed?" (HAHAHAHAHA.) Although, not totally weird, I did miss a period ONCE a few years ago because I was really stressed out. (And really thin, not sure which one was the reason though. Probably both.) 


And soon enough...my bathroom drawer looked something like this, haha. Don't worry. I did eventually throw them all away. I swear. It was getting gross. 

SO YEAH. I was pretty convinced now. And John eventually came around. I think it took about two weeks total though, lol. And it took me just as long to finally find and make an appointment with a doctor because I was so scared. (And because I didn't have a doctor yet here and didn't know where to even begin, but luckily John is Mr. researcher and found "the best one" lol.) I probably sounded like such an idiot when I called like, "hi. I believe I might be pregnant..." Just kidding, I didn't actually say that, but something like that. I gave her the date of my last period and she estimated I was around 5 weeks, but said they wouldn't want to see me until around 8 weeks, BUT I was going out of town so I had to schedule it for the week after, which would put me closer to 9 weeks. So now I was looking at not really "finding out" if this was all real or not for another MONTH. I about died. But what could I do? (Keep taking pregnancy tests apparently, lol. John eventually was like, "okay you're pregnant. Stop buying those things.") 

So honestly, this whole "secret" time was (and still is as I'm writing this at only 10 weeks) really hard on me. I wanted to be happy. I mean I dreamed of this happening forever, but I was just so overwhelmed with all the feelings and questions I had (like, "am I really ready for this??!") and I just felt really alone and sort of sad. And everything started changing and it was just A LOT all at once. At first because I didn't really feel pregnant or any different at all, I just kept on trying to live my normal life. I'd wake up, drink my pre-workout, workout and then follow it up with a pot of coffee. But eventually John told me what I already knew I'd have to do, but I really didn't want to...cut out all the caffeine. And I know you can drink a little bit of coffee, but it was something that John thought was important, so I did it. And he's had no problem with me still working out, so I figure it's compromise, lol. And after that, I DEFINITELY started to feel different. I blamed it all on caffeine withdrawals at first. Why I was so tired. Why I was getting headaches. Why I was irritable. But then the food aversions came, and my boobs like doubled in size in a day (sorry TMI) and it was clear this was not all caffeine related. I think I'm going to write up a whole post about the food cravings and things though, because that shit rocked my world, lol. I never thought those were real. BUT THEY ARE. I couldn't eat a salad or any vegetable for that matter unless I drenched it in parmesan cheese and ranch. It was a rough time. (But getting better finally..)

And I got very, very emotional a few times and yeah...I'm already a very emotional person, but this was different. In the car one day, the song "Love Triangle" came on (does anyone know it? It's country..) and I just couldn't even hold it in. I started crying and begging John to change the station and he was laughing and thought it was so funny and wouldn't change it. THEN he fricking bought the song! He still thinks it's funny! (But it's not! It's about divorce!)


And when I had to fly to Michigan, I had a little issue that left me looking like a crazy person crying through the airport. And I'm still kind of mad about it, but whatever! So I had read many times that pregnant women usually avoid the body scanner in security, you know? And I had looked it up and read it was safe and blah blah, but John was like, "it's fine. You have pre-check you won't even have to go though it." So I was like, ok, cool! AND THEN my ticket didn't print with pre-check, so I ask the lady why and she goes, "oh sometimes they just don't." And that was it. So I was like, whatever...I'll just go through security. And I was really nervous to ask to begin with, but I get to the front and I say, "excuse me. If I'm pregnant can I bypass that thing and just go through the metal detector?" BECAUSE THEY WERE PULLING PEOPLE ANYWAYS TO GO THROUGH THE METAL DETECTOR SIDE. And this stupid man was SO MEAN. Like, clearly didn't believe me and goes, "not really. Unless you want a pat down." And the way he said it just was in a way that made me feel really stupid and like they didn't have time for that. So I was like, "NOT REALLY" and started crying right there, hahaha. And then kept crying all the way through the body scanner, and putting my shoes back on, and then practically running for what felt like ever trying to find a bathroom where I then cried and cried texting John about it. I was so upset. But I got over it, and when my ticket didn't print with pre-check on the flight back I didn't even bother asking. WHATEVER. 

So yeah, very emotional. Very hungry. Very tired. My life started to revolve around my sleep. At first I kept up with my morning workouts, and then I started to wake up starving so I'd eat and push them back to later in the day. (I can't work out feeling food in my stomach.) And while I have kept up with working out every day, it just wipes me out and makes me triple tired. So recently I started sleeping in later in an effort to not have to nap during the day. But still it seems like whenever 2PM comes around...I'm tired again. I sure hope what everyone says is true and this passes soon, because it's driving me crazy. I get nothing done because ALL I DO IS SLEEP! But it's for a good cause...so it's fine, right? (Right? Life can wait?) 

But all the changes just felt like a lot, at once. Especially because I had been in such a routine for so long. I had a few breakdowns because I felt like I just "wasn't me anymore." I've been this one person for 28 years and all of a sudden, I felt different. I became this new crazy person who can't make it through the day without at least an hour nap and cries when she finds out the potatoes that were supposed to be for dinner went bad, and can't even choke down a fricking salad! But I've come around a lot, especially since as I'm writing this I've seriously known for like 7 weeks so I've had time to process it all, but at first I was really freaked out. And I know this is only the beginning, and everyone will tell me "just wait," but I guess I just always assumed it'd be easy. That I could handle all of it better. That I was tough or something, haha. But I think it's just a case of rolling with it and finding a new normal. And I'm getting there. (Until of course, it changes again...)

So anyways, my appointment FINALLY came. And thankfully John was able to take the day off to come with me, because I was so, so nervous! I was like nervous something wasn't really in there/equally nervous that something really was. And obviously I had never had an appointment like this before so I just didn't know what to expect. But it went super well. They did a quick sonogram first and there it was...


Something was really in there!

I thought I would freak out over seeing "it" finally, but it happened so fast and the woman didn't really give me time to like "take it all in" and the only question I managed to ask was, "does it move??" Hahaha. She was like, "not much, it's still in the gummy bear stage." Which I thought was so cute and we called it a gummy bear for about a week afterwards. And then we heard it's heartbeat and it was so fast! Like 169! (Which means girl according to all those little myths.) And John was like, "well I hope that slows down eventually. It's going to have a heart attack" haha. AND THEN as I'm coming back from getting dressed again I hear her say to John, "looks like a due date of May 6th" and I was like, "OH MY GOD I KNEW IT. THAT'S MY BIRTHDAY." (I downloaded a few different apps and they were giving me different due dates, but they were all around my birthday so I just knew this would happen.) And by the size of the baby, they put me at 8 weeks 3 days and not 9 weeks like I thought. (Which made me sort of sad because that meant even longer before I could tell, which has/is slowly killing me.) And then we met with our doctor who we LOVE, love love. We both felt really, really good about her. She was super cool and was totally on board with all my crazy talk about working out and trying to gain minimal weight. (She was like, "yeah you would be fine to gain 15-20 lbs. And I was like...well, no more like 25 probably. But let's try to cap it there...haha.) 

So since then...which was a little over two weeks ago now, we've both come around a lot to this whole idea, and we're getting pretty excited. (Even John!) I've started reading up on pregnancy and parenting (which is overwhelming to say the least), and I checked out a bunch of baby name books at the library and I think we've even narrowed it down to about two boy and two girl names. (We are super easy though.) John's actually really good at the naming part. I'll probably just let him name him/her which is funny because I always thought I'd be a control freak about it, but I just love that Johns into it and I want him to really be a part of everything he can since duh, it's mostly me doing everything as in growing it etc...

AND we will actually be finding out the gender next week sometime! I got some genetic/blood testing done, which also will tell the sex and we should have the results within the week. Pretty crazy, and most people (at least younger people) opt out of this because it's not always covered by insurance, but if you know John, you know that he wants to know everything. It's just very like him. So we did it. And I cannot believe we get to find out so early. It's good though because knowing us, it would be a loooooonnng however many weeks until they could look and tell us. And that even makes me nervous because sometimes they're wrong! SO YEAH. Almost 11 weeks, and I told John once we hit 12 weeks, he can't stop me from finally telling the world! Not that I could hide it much longer, because in case anyone was wondering. YES. I am showing. (I think so at least.) I've been really good about taking pictures, so here's my latest comparison. The day I found out vs this morning... 


And by the time I "tell," I'm sure it'll be showing even more. And these are both in the morning and trust me, by the time I go to bed I am DEFINITELY showing. I've gained about 5 lbs already, and I've already ordered two pairs of maternity leggings which I will soon be living in! My app says this baby is already the size of a lime, so I'm not even mad it's making it's way out already. It has to go somewhere! Although my butt seems bigger too...but that's probably from all the cereal I've been eating. Or the fact that I usually eat lunch and then immediately take a nap afterwards. Or my metabolism's slowing down, I don't know. These are conversations for another day, lol...

...but I'm actually going to stop right here since once we find out the gender, I know I'm going to have A LOT more thoughts/feelings/things I want to write about, so I probably want to dedicate an entire post to that. Right now I'm guessing it's a boy by the way. I felt VERY strongly for about two weeks that it was a girl, and now I feel like it's a boy. (I also had a dream it was a kitten. Not even kidding. I was really relieved when I woke up that it wasn't real, lol.) And John thought girl at first because of the heartbeat, but now he thinks boy now too. And then every single person in our family thinks boy, haha. So we will see...

Until next time! x

26 comments:

  1. So freaking excited for you!! My exhaustion never went away...I took naps almost every day, but I also wasn't in good shape like you are so you could be completely different. I gave up caffeine until the last trimester and was like "I must have pop to function" Hahahaha. I was seriously so worried lily would come out a boy and would have them check at every ultrasound. Haha. I really wanted to have the harmony test done so I could know for sure but Jacob told me no. Haha

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    1. I was the same way hahah I was super nervous she might be a boy and the ultrasounds were wrong 😂

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    2. Me too! I asked my dr at every appointment to check!

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    3. Oh I will totally ask still, even though it's a pretty for sure deal now lol. But it's scary! I followed this girl on instagram who was "having a boy" and she had a girl!!! That would totally flip me out because I'm already picturing and imaging her as a HER and all that lol. Not to mention all the things you buy, etc. But yeah, we're so excited! And I have a feeling I will always be tired too. I can't sleep at night and I'm working out probably too much so I'm going to be forever tired. But getting used to it!

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  2. Again I am so so so so so excited for you guys!!!! I loved reading this!! Jason and I were tryingand we were still in disbelief when I got a positive test haha it's so unreal and then so real at the same time!!! I bet your name ideas are cute :) if it was a boy you should have named him Johnny (like Johnny Apfelseed.) (when you become a mom, your jokes get really lame as you can see from me :) ) you look so good in your pics!' Like you think you're showing but really you loook like you still have a 6 pack to me haha . I can't wait to hear more and keep reading every detail! As much as pregnancy wasn't my favorite thing in the world, I can't wait to do it again, haha I want all the babies! So yeah keeep documenting like crazy please!!!

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    1. Oh you know I will document like crazy! I mostly need to sort out how I feel about everything, but I also want to remember it all. I'm sure someday I'll think I sound so stupid and clueless right now (because I do) but it's all new and I'm no expert so whatever! And Johnny is funny lol. Some of Johns family calls him that. John had a really good boy name so I think I'll hold onto it because I'm not sure yet....but I feel like I will want all the babies too lol. We will see how this goes!

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  3. When I saw your posts yesterday, I think I audibly said "YAY!" I'm so happy for you and this is so, so exciting. This blogging world is so strange because you follow people on their journeys and feel like you 'know' them. You will be a great mom and I can't wait to hear updates! xo

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    1. Aww I totally know. I get so happy for my blog friends sometimes even though I know I'll most likely never meet them, but I KNOW them lol!

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  4. I was SO excited to see your announcement yesterday! Tired was my pregnancy symptom throughout lol Please document!! I love reading what you write. Clearly I didn't (a.k.a gave up) but my job got too demanding during the day I didn't want to "brain" at home, but I still read! Trust me you will continue to google your heart out and you are going to LOVE being a girl mom. I swore Ellie was a boy. I even had a boy named picked out and didn't know how I felt about her being a her, but she is absolutely perfect and I can't imagine anything different. My favorite thing about pregnancy was Danny. You are going to love the entire time of John reading about baby stuff, talking about baby stuff, feeling her move inside of you, and just daydreaming about life with her. Oh and you are not going to read or talk about anything else but this baby for like ever now...Well, Ellie is only 11 weeks (today, actually...how???!) so maybe I will one day, but I love she is my focus! So much fun.

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    1. AWWW she's already 11 weeks??! That was fast!! I can't believe it. And I can totally see how I'll never think of anything else again haha. Already happening. Now that I know it's a her, I'm obsessed. I can totally picture this better than when it was just a "baby." And John is killing me he's so cute already. I think he secretly wanted a girl because he seems really into it haha. Out of no where he says things like, "I think I have to take her out on dates." And I'm like, "yeah you should" --> cue heart breaking lol. I love it. ALSO if I haven't told you I LOVE THE NAME ELLIE! I'm not taking it don't worry, I think we already have a name, but I LOVE IT.

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  5. This is the best news ever!!! I'm so happy for you guys! It took me a LONG time to get used to the idea of being pregnant, too - so much so that I didn't even announce I was pregnant till 16 weeks, ha! It is just crazy how much life changes in one second when that test shows up positive! The exhaustion/headaches were totally gone for me by about that time, too - the second and most of the third trimester are pretty great! Ahhh I'm just so excited. Can't wait to follow along and hear more! I'm here for you if you have any crazy questions!!! Soak it all up - I miss being pregnant so much - it goes by way too quickly (even though it doesn't feel like it lol)!

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    1. Lol I wonder if I will be someone who misses it? So far it's been pretty easy to be honest. I just hate that I can't go go go all the time like I used to. But now that I know what it is, I feel like so in love with her so I think I might love being pregnant now. (Unless I get really, really huge than I won't like that, but I'm trying not to lol.) And it was so crazy, I felt like it was just like what happened to you. Except we weren't as surprised. We knew we were being careless, I just didn't think it would really happen. Isn't there like one day a month you can actually get pregnant? It's pretty crazy when you think about that. Like, clearly this was all meant to be then right? Ah, so crazy.

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  6. Yayayayay! I saw your announcement yesterday & was like OMG! I'm so excited to read more about everything! :)
    PS- Welcome back & I love the new look!

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    1. Thank you!!!! I'm so glad to be back ;) I've got a lot to say and I missed everyone so much!!! Blogging is really my jam. I need it in my life badly.

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  7. Ahhh congratulations!! And I'm so glad you're back! I used to read your blog all of the time and then found out it was blocked on my computer at work? I read a lot of blogs and none of them are blocked so it's really weird lol. And then you went private so I'm so glad to see this!! Anyways, I feel like I wrote this post myself. I'm 18 weeks (still won't know the sex for 2 more weeks, ugh) and I still don't feel like it's real!! We were kinda winging it too when it happened (knew what we were doing, but not necessarily 'trying') and I couldn't believe it when there was a positive test. Like I know how it happens, but HOW DID THAT HAPPEN?!? Haha I feel like I had a very similar first trimester, I was so weirded out by food (and water) and sleep was my best friend. There was one month that was just awful, but I made it to the other side, the side that everyone tells you about lol. I may or may not still have all of the tests that I took (but they're in the boxes so it's not that gross, right? Ha). My husband finally cut me off from buying more tests too. I was super paranoid (because I'm just a paranoid person) until my appointment at 16 weeks. having 3 ultrasounds wasn't enough to convince me that everything was fine, it just took me time I think to process everything. Now that I'm almost halfway there, I'm finally getting more excited and I can't wait for all the fun things ahead! I'm really so excited for you and John, congrats again!! (Sorry for the novel haha)

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    1. Oh my gosh CONGRATULATIONS!!!!!!!!!!! So similar!!! I feel like maybe I should have kept at least one of the tests but I swear I could smell them. (TMI might have just been me being grossed out by everything hahaha.) So are you feeling better now??? I feel like I am...or I'm just getting used to it, not sure which one it is haha. And I have no idea why I was banned! Maybe my blog is too risky, lol. (JK I hope not lol.)

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  8. I'm soooooo excited for you! Baby girls are so much fun. Trav didn't believe it either because the line was so faint on the first one. I can't wait to read more- I miss your blogging!

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    1. Guys are so funny lol! I'm like, "okay whatever, but these are made to detect these things." I just let him have his space to accept it lol. But he's actually so excited for a girl now. It's sort of killing me it's so cute.

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  9. Congratulations!!!! I am so excited for you guys!!! The other day Michael was like, "I hope our first baby is a girl," out of nowhere and I was super surprised. I thought boys always wanted boys, at least for the first one! Hahaha. But anyway I already had baby fever and that comment did not help! Ha! I hope you keep documenting! I'm a super weirdo and like to read all about pregnancy and new babies and stuff.

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  10. YAY! I can't wait for the NEXT post now! That exhaustion is real. I actually really liked being pregnant, but holy cow. I would sleep until noon some days, nap for two hours in the afternoon, and still go to bed at 9pm. I remember laying on my couch all day long and wondering how people with kids ever have a second (or third or fourth) baby. I was completely and utterly exhausted in the early days and at the end. I didn't think I was pregnant either! I laughed at John never thinking you were actually pregnant, haha. We didn't even get the option for the Harmony gender part! We did the chromosome testing with that test for defects, but not the gender. I have no idea why I was too shy to ask my OB about doing it either, because I would have only had to cover like, $35 to find out the gender with that test, since I specifically asked my insurance about it. But we ended up doing a gender scan on a HUGE screen at this little office building when I was 17 weeks and it was a cool experience, so I think we'll do that next time too. Also, I was 98lbs pre pregnancy. I gained FORTY TWO pounds. Did you catch that?! FOUR. TWO. FORTY TWO. Hahahaha. And people kept telling me how I was all belly. I was like, guys, my scrub pants are tight as shit- I promise you, I am NOT all belly. My ass was like, quadruple the size it is now (which, mom butt is totally real. Especially when you get a stress fracture and can't squat- but you lose all that baby weight and something undeniable happens to your butt and it just is never the same, it totally flattens out like a pancake- and your boobs- enjoy your boobs now. As a matter of fact, have John take some naked photos of you RIGHT NOW before you get a total Mom Bod. And enjoy what tight skin on your belly feels like. Even if you get thin again like I am, your skin doesn't feel the same. It totally feels like it stretched around your huge baby. But really- none of that really matters because you have a baby to think about and your body grew that little life and it's pretty cool. I'll take my flat butt and saggy tits any day, as long as my baby is healthy!). Being pregnant is so awesome though. I was so over it by 34 weeks, but feeling baby parts in your belly is really the coolest thing ever. I used to LOVE feeling his arms and butt in my belly and even feeling pregnant people now is just fascinating. And then all of the sudden, they come out of you and those body parts become tangible. It's really surreal. Your story about the airport was ridiculous, haha. Just get ready to cry over everything. For the rest of your life. I cried at Five Guys trying to tell Jon a story that I read on a blog about a baby dying and he was so embarrassed and was like, "CAN YOU NOT CRY AT FIVE GUYS?! CAN YOU TELL ME LATER?!" Okay, I really have to work on a paper, but I am SO SO SO EXCITED to read about your pregnancy. Obviously I think keeping it real is important, since I talked about how I considered adoption and abortion on my blog when I was pregnant with Jackson. Those hormones are insane.

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    1. HAAAHHHA, how am I just reading this now?!?! Sometimes your comments don't come to my normal inbox so I miss them, but I'm laughing at your Five Guys story. My John HATES when I cry in public, lol. He's always like, "this looks so bad, please can you stop." And I'm like, "IT HAS NOTHING TO DO WITH YOU." But I realize it probably does look bad lol. But, ugh, yes. The crying. I can't even control it sometimes.

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  11. I am so excited for you and John! I woke up this morning to this announcement and I was so happy for you...I can hear your happiness in your writing. Congratulations and I look forward to hearing more from you in your blog; I've missed it!

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  12. Absolutely LOVED reading all about this girlfriend! So SO happy for you and I think it's awesome that you journaled it all out. Because being pregnant is CRAZY. It's awesome and exciting and scary and terrifying and fun and hard and everything rolled into one.

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  13. Congratulations! That's so exciting. I think that's so true though. I don't think you're ever truly ready until it just happens. I can definitely relate to what y'all were going through before you got pregnant.

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